Say it loud , Say it proud .

2010-12-10T00:02:00.001+08:00

2010-04-23T19:17:00.000+08:00

Will be going back to working life tomorrow onwards . So unused to having to earn my own living and dependent . D: I will be even more busy from now on caz only got ONE off day ! D: Gah i got to use my last free day properly . so , ciao .

2010-03-10T02:36:00.000+08:00

Sitting all alone in my room right now , dying to go beyond these boundaries . I would kill to just sneak out for a moment to find him right now . It's just my luck since I do realize that you have to go for work tomorrow morning . Suddenly it comes toe that I really shouldn't suspended my studies in the first place . Well this is not regret . Just kind of hoping that I hadn't been so active about working in the first place . Guess my mom is the one who knows it all and she has been right about the decisions I've made . There's definately no turning back in my journey and I know how much I'll have to catch up . I'm suddenly afraid of losing my in built talent with lost touch of studying . I know how much I've detiorated since i haven't been studying . Look at my spelling now , words that used to be a piece of cake to me before seem to struggle to come out , even for writing . What more to compare , speaking ? Guess I should blog more often nowadays to make sure it doesn't slip so quickly . Life without having to work and service other people for the moment assures me health points but this is only for the time being . I can't be sitting at home all day long and doing nothing , can I ? I'll just end things here since I've promised darling that I'll be ending all my activities at 2am . So there , ciao .

2010-03-04T09:14:00.000+08:00

Have been away from retail line for few weeks or so then started trying out a job in the factories. Just realize that I'm not made for this . Like I didn't know what my dream job looks like . Tired of not being able to stand out and being the same just as anybody else . Finally , dumped that job as well . So conclusion , jobless ! Shall look out for another job in the retail line agn . And yes it's all because I hate the safety shoes ! Like WTF I know ! But I can't help it , the shoes are even worst than the previous shoes I was made to wear when I worked for Pedro ! Like yuck I absolutely hate it ! Next up , prepare to look for another job . So now I'm like waiting in the car till darling gets away from his work . I know since I'm already here , why not work for the last day ? But my problem are the shoes . So it's just too bad . Note to self : I should really go back to studies .

2010-01-30T01:45:00.001+08:00

Happy 5th month darling ! I nv thought I would be here , spending my 5th month with you . Darling I love you laa ! You're the best I ever tasted and I want no more . I hope we will be tgt till forever . Alright , since in alr here , shall post a short one . Last day of work for the week today , worked full-time . Suuupee tired manzxc . Went to the bank early on the morning and that was total crap . Facebook friends would know what's going on . Lol and for the next 5days , if nothing goes wrong , I don't have to work . Off for 5days ! Woots ! Happyhappy . :D hm gtg back to the phone . Hehs~ ciaos !

2010-01-26T23:46:00.001+08:00

OK . Er . Hi . Kinda strange doing this post when my blog is alr dead . Thought i would have forgotten my blogger P/W after such a long time . LOLs . Well lets see which kind soul will kindly help me revive this . As if anymore readers will drop by and accidentally read this . Haha . I kinda think working makes me sick . As in like mental problems . The first symtoms starts when you start talking to yourself for leisure like what i was doing , and then OOPs , spotting what the hell you r doing . LOLs . Or maybe i just miss blogging . Hahh AS IF. Ok, Er . Bye . gotta get on to life now . Hahs .

2009-11-19T00:06:00.000+08:00

Finally have th time to update my fking dead bloggg . Sorry ar sisters , working nowadays , and today off thats why had th time to come blogging . Working life is definitely no fun man . Anybody who are considering working , DON'T ! How nice is it to just have to stretch out your hands to get allowance . No need to slog yr guts out just to earn that meagre amt . Besides , working life strains relationships between couples , friends and families . Sigh . So there . Back to work tmr. Ciao .

2009-10-27T03:34:00.005+08:00

Hi . Hey . Hello .

Boreeed . Went for an interview at Eunos today , still waiting for results . Dont think too well of th job . Args . Forget it . Met Galfee , Dearie , And DEAR RIVEN SCOTT at Payah Lebah . Long lost (enemy) . LOLs . Meeting him was fucking hilarious , to see him ridiculed by Dearie was th best entertainment manzxc !~ After that , met Darling and went to baibai , then off to his house and finally back home . Before 12am . Goodgirl :D

im so fucking boreed can ! Had only myself to blame . D:

Darling :

Sorry for evything. Evyth i've done and said so far that made you mad .

Sorry for not entertaining you just now , end up you so tired .

Sorry for th things tht happened on your couch .

Sorry for all th wrong things i've said / done .

atyc , iloveyou

2009-10-23T23:33:00.001+08:00

Scary night out @ Night Safari

Hoy ~ Shall post a new post since my blog had been sooo deeeead . Went to Night Safari w/ Darling and his friend today . Wasted trip . Its halloween theme at night safari , i didn't know . And me , being so afraid of th made up ghost , screemed and wailed like a kid to get my ass out of th horrible place . God . Its so fucking scary. I didn't even managed to go pass th ticketing counter to take th horror train ride . Good thing darling didnt mind going home w/ me . I was so fucking scared tht i almost cried manxzc . So damn embaressing ! >< I kept pleading w/ darling to get me out of tht horrible place that he had no choice but to bring me out . I later regretted not taking some pictures before leaving . Will try to bring in some photos to post , promise ! :D Im now at darling's place , still recovering frm th horrors. Ciao for now , ima going to take a break for now :D

2009-10-18T01:48:00.001+08:00

The start of the end

Reminising. The word to discribe my feelings right now . I had always known by heart that what guys are ,
inside out , always given th right comments to ppl around me . Yet when it comes to me , Big blunders is what i make . The saying that ppl who are in love are completely blinded by it . Its absolutly sensible to me . I dont rmb whr i had heard this from , '' to guys , love is only a chapter but to girls , love is a whole book . '' This , i had not belived in in th past , makes near-to-perfect sense to me . Guys say that girls are as complicating as algebra . But i think that Guys are as complicating as algebra and girls combined . Its just so difficult . No matter how fucking hard i try , i end up making mistakes . I dont understand why you cant understand . Even when i win , i lose something else . As what dearie always say , Love is something you can fall in but not out of it . It had seemed as a pretty sentence then . But as i read it agn , it hurts . It hurts to know how fragile i've been under your care , hurts to just hear a simple comment comming out of your mouth . I dont know how , but somehow , you've managed . Managed to completely subdue me . Its just so irritating and wonderful at th same time .

2009-10-09T23:47:00.008+08:00

Hey ! Im back from Darling's place . I wonder if its th whole love thing , I just can't seem to get enough of him . True , i dont have to . He's a great guy and i nv have to worry abt anyth when im w him . But spending th whole night w him doesn't seem to work anm . It just increases my affection and worsen th state im in when im not w you . Guess i'll just have to start learning how to be me, normally, even when you're not around . Darling. Thanks for evyth . For tolerating w me when i always fa my xiaojie piqi. For always giving in to me . For th most memorable things you've given me .

iloveyou , AlvinTan

2009-10-06T19:20:00.001+08:00

Hellos ! Just got home from westmall and Math exam Paper one. :) Paper one was a close call . Late and caught for skirt . During the last half an hr , i was freaking afraid tht i'll nv be able to complete it . Luckily i did it , with a spare 5mins left :D Paper one was easy . :D Didn't even need to study . Maybe th best way to study is like tht . LOLs ! Mummy was so worried for me . LOLs . To think i was still alil worried myself . Hahas . Now , lets hope th 2nd paper would be as easy as that :D I wanted to give some credits here to Timothy here as well . He'd actually encouraged me . LOLS ! And its Timothy im talking abt . Hahas . alright , now for some entertainment . To de-stress :D ( As if i was stressed . ) LOLs ! Ciaos :D

&& , I HATE DOTA !
{ DOTA = boyfriend snatcher }=.=

2009-10-05T19:20:00.000+08:00

Hoy ! Today is the first time for the whole month tht i one whole afternoon nv see Darling le. Just got home , then realised i got a chickenpox like thingy on my toe. And it hurts ! Thought no chance go find Darling le. But he's so sweet to come find me :DD And now he;s here ! ima getting down ! Ciaos ! :DDDD

2009-10-04T18:32:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was lantern festival , which is the 15th of th 8th month on the lunar calendar . Galfee suddenly had the urge to play w fireworks . LOLs. Seeing th lil' kids play must have been the reason . She , actually forked out money to buy a packet of fireworks and i went home to get the leftover candles from last year . We waited for Jiajun korkor arrival then we went 304 to play . At around 10plus , after Darling end work , he came and i had a second round of fun . Darling , me and baby had our reunion ytd . :DD Then we went for his dinner and home . Here are some pictures he nv got to see. See , darling , i so good right ? post let you see my masterpiece :DD

:DDDDDDDDDDD

2009-10-03T10:35:00.003+08:00

If i could say what i'd wanna see ,
I wanna see you fucked up , BY ME .

Morning ! I've been awake since 5am today and im boreeed at home ! Cant seem to get to sleep . Too excited by tdy's activities , i guess . Tsktsk . Me , being evil doesn't even bring us closer by half a inch . Your evilness is TO THE CORE . Dont think anything i do can be compared to yours . Receive your penalty , You BITCH . To think you have enough evilness in you to draw out mine . Oh , im struck DUMBFOUNDED . Oh , im in AWE . The mere thought of you brings shivers manzxc . I'll see how long you can hold on to .

2009-10-01T05:04:00.002+08:00

Happy first month ! Oh , and its so overdued by 5hrs. hahas . Was keeping myself busy before that in my darling's embrace. hohos. I envy myself , sometimes. Hahas :DD This month , yes , especially this month , have passed so quickly and im contented just to have you . I nv knew how fragile i could be until you showed me that i dont have to be strong , tht i will always have someone to lean upon regardless of whether i need it or not . I didnt knew how it was like , having someone thr , to present me with the out-of-th-world joys im getting right now. Guess i just didn't know what was love , until you came into my life . The new life , the love , the joys im getting , was so much more than what i had bargained for , is what you gave me . Its life you breathed into me . Its what i nv heard of , nv knew of , and now , its what i know i'd kill to get and treasure it for a lifetime .

ILOVEYOU
300809

2009-09-26T18:09:00.003+08:00

Hoy . Hello . Hi . Morning . *Yawn. Im still waiting for the proof Since 17sept . Its been 9days &nothing have since came . No news at all . Darlings , if you girls want to give us the penalty , why not try speeding things up? It seems that im more worried abt it than you girls huh ? Neither of you even bothered to get the mail. Im starting to doubt agn . With valid reasons this time . Sigh. Today darling go lion dance , leaving me alone. Well . Not exactly alone. LOLs . But darling I MISS YOU ! I hope i'll get to see you agn tonight , and i appreciate you pei me , instead of sleeping , out to 371 to get breakfast . I know you were tired caz i was too . I went back home and fell asleep by 9am caz i know you're sound asleep alr . :D

I cant even clear myself out of this mess now.
By speeding you girls up is the last thing i can do.

2009-09-19T16:52:00.000+08:00

Hellos ! Goodmorning . :) Just got home from Darling's place , ate and now blog. :) Saw the annoying ANONYMOUS on Galfee's blog. Dont worry, annoyance , your identity will soon be exposed :) Well , nothing much to blog abt . I rather go back to playing Harvest Moon . :D Its the greatest invention ever manzxc ! :DD Ciaos !

&, i hope you'll make good your words .
ILOVEYOU.

2009-09-17T18:40:00.004+08:00

You guys can say whtever you want for the time being, since you've said to have seen the proof.
Theres no point making groundless accusations nor any point in trying to force facts .
Facts are facts , as i aways say . Im just disappointed to see how much trust you've got for us .
If being sisters for so long doesn't show our integrity , -- mine and jiahui's , thn i guess its nothing worth fighting for. Be it the fact that its worth being sisters or the fact that we did it or not .

If only you girls haven't changed.
I would have loved to love you so .
Sisters ? We might be if meant to be .
Anger or disappointment ?
You might know better than i do .

2009-09-17T12:21:00.002+08:00

Morning readers ! Its a ''late morning" i have here though . hahas .

You cant imagine the disappointment that washed over me when i didnt see darling's msg .

I wonder why is he still not awake ? ><>

Love is aways sweet ,

Even the bitter parts are .

2009-09-16T23:28:00.002+08:00

Hellohello ! :D im back ! My com's revived and im active once more . :DDD

I miss darlink. You happyhappy at 4head laaa hor . LOLs . But im glad tht my com's finally

back :D Now im going back to my book :D Ciaos !

2009-09-15T15:48:00.003+08:00

Hellos ! Posting this from darling house. Had been here since the last 15 hours. Hahas. Alright , now to serious business . Everything had been settled and now evything's gonna be fine. :) now im going back to the sofa pei darling :DD

You made me feel loved :D
ILOVEYOU Darling

2009-09-13T20:17:00.002+08:00

Im posting this from Darling's house. I've news to share . My greatgrandmother just passed away. I thing peirong sister will know which one im talking about. Well death is inevitable , but its so unexpected. Guess she's gone for good. Living nv fails to bring misery. I'v lost a relative & im feeling tht im gonna lose a friend soon. Not dalpreet im talking abt, relax. You know who you are , i supposed. I can remind you if you dont. By leaving me out of your life , ofcaz , its not gonna improve out friendship. So thr , no mood for all these . Ciaos.

Friendship ?
I'll bet nth's comparable to your love.

2009-09-11T18:01:00.001+08:00

Hoy ! At galfee's home right now , to deliver you guys a great great news , my com will be aright agn in days time ! hohos . Yay , finally. & i've been wondering wht lasts forever ? Nothing. It's not tht i don't trust you , my dear . I didn't belive in this before . Well , ofcaz , unless you prove it ? Nobody should live for anybody else . Which is exactly wht i've been doing w/o realising. I don't want me to turn out tht way . I don't want to have to survive caz of anybody else . Becaz , tht way , you just have to mke a minor mistake to hurt me . Its just like , making bread w/o adding yeast . It'll definitely fail. So thr , i dont wanna be so dependant on you. Just in case . :) Gotta end here. nth more to blog. Ciaos.

2009-09-10T18:11:00.002+08:00

Hoy ! Im at Darling house right now , so i thought i'd update. hahahs. Had problems recently but i supposed it'll be over real soon :) Today wanted go find galfee but she's too obsessed w/ her boyfee i guess. LOL. Nth else to say, guess i'll end here . Ciaos

2009-09-08T10:45:00.000+08:00

Hoy readers ! Im back ! :D Had a 1/2 hr exam tdy , total crap ! And , later for some problems tht surfaced , had to get back to school by 1pm. And , puh-lease , get your facts right before you give any statements . By saying that im the betrayer wouldn't give you a lighter sentence . You know who you are and you know wht you did . I don't have to clear myself for your accusation. truths are truth . By now you should have realised how much privillege you'd been given alright , No point in wanting to pull anyone down w/ you.
To darling : i suuper MISS you laa . :D had a great day w you last sat , Vivo is an amazingly romantic place to hang w/ your loved ones . Even the air is all abt romance luh ! :DD So thr , i'l end thiss here . Rachel sissy waiting for her turn hahahas :D Ciaos :D

2009-09-03T13:29:00.001+08:00

Hoy readers ! :D im at galfee's home , thts why i could bloggg !
Suuuuuper miss my blooooog laaaa ! :DDD Today darling pon his morning session then came to find me , and now he's back to school. I suuuper miss you luh , darling :D Firstly , i wanna thank darling for leaving fantastic memories for he past few days , you're being so sweet tht you're so unresistable man ! You're the only one ever , who has successfully made me wake up early in the mornings , and rush through them just looking forward to seeing you . Well i didnt used to have a goal before , thts why im always slacking at home or w galfee. But now i do , and my goal is you . And , i do miss galfee sooo much. hadn't been with her for the past two days , and i miss her soo much ! That jiajun, look out, im back to share jiahui w you again today ! haahaas . I've got my evening planned , booked . By darling of course. hahas .His mom invited me over for dinner tonight , and im having a headache over what to wear tonight. He said casual will do , but i've to leave a better impression mahs ! My first impression alr not as good , how can i leave my second one bad ! hahas. Lastly , i miss my darling laaaa ! oh well , forget it. i get to see him agn tonight anw :DDD

300809 , the best day of my life :D
P.S : Date same as galfee :DDD
&& i love you both , galfee and darling :DD

2009-08-20T13:04:00.000+08:00

Hellohellos ! So sad aye , com down . So don't expect another post soon ayes D:
Booooring day . Went early to school in the MORNING to see the principals yet didn't get to ,
busy people ey. Im gonna go w/ Dearie to westmall to get tongue piercing . But on second thought ,
should i ? Caz im spo damn FUCKING scared ley . D:
you all know tht pain's my biggest weakness tht i hate to face D:
well lets see how i can squirm outta this mess ? ==
Hm i'll end here , so ciaos :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Your insignificant appearance
compared to your bigbig LOVE .

2009-08-06T13:56:00.002+08:00

Goodmorning ! (: Its another if the high-intensed heat day in Singapore. Sigh , I LOVE my blog song so damn much . Its one of the songs that got me into thinking , missing , tearing and regretting . & its so soothing . I reccomended this song to JiaHui galfee once i got to hear it , and she loved it as much as i did (: Im both hungry & boreed , stuck at home , with nothing to do. D: But look at tht weather , you dont expect me to get out thr , do you ? i'll get myself cooked ! LMAO .

Now the lesson's learnt.
I touched it & i was burnt.

This one's for YOU .

2009-08-05T13:42:00.008+08:00

Goodmorning. To me . Its a fcuking hot day EVERYDAY in Singapore luhh ! & after reading Dearie's post , i realised how long I've been suspended from school luh. Its nearly 3weeks or a month now. & i even got news tht we'll be suspended indefinitely. What crap . You people never keep your promises luh. Is this what a model example is like? Any readers got a School with crazy teachers in there ? I mean those REALLY MAD ones. Like sending smses with the victim's friend mobile, sending messages like "nehnehnipoopoo i don't want to be your friend anymore." or something like that. Well I heard from my friends that MY school does . & have you heard any parent would tell you that a teacher from her child's school was TERRIFICALLY RUDE ? Well , ask my mom and you'll all hear of that. Caz tht particular teacher teaches in none other than MY school. Tell me luh, isn't wht we learn taught by you ? Do you guys spot the irony ey ? Here, schools are punishing the kiddos for rudeness , mischievous acts , being cheeky etc. But why don't you look into a mirror ? That's probably what exactly you'll probably see alright . Well of caz i mean to those REALLY MAD and TERRIFICALLY RUDE ones luh. If it doesn't concern YOU. Then you might as well EffEuuSeeKay off. No need to get worked up aye .

& guess what . I dreamt of someone i shouldn't be dreaming abt . For the past 2days . I repeat to myself everyday , that you are over . But you appear even in my dreams . Im like playing an evil prank on myself . Punishing myself for even knowing you from day one , & these you'll never know . Its been a few months. Yet the impact of your presence is still so strong . For someone like me who had never given a damn to pretty guys, you are definitely the first . The first to make me suffer so much. The first whom i depend so much on your presence to keep alive . The photo , you sent me , on my desktop , with you in your bedroom , only adds a new cut on me each time , reminding me that i'll never be able to find an exact replica . I'll never be able to love . At least , not yet . & i only have myself to thank .

Whats left behind are only memories,
Caz you're no longer mine.

2009-08-02T15:05:00.013+08:00

Hellos ! :DD I just had breakfast -- macaroni w/ pasta sauce. It was great ! especially caz im th chef . i've to admit im not a good chef . But , well , at least my brother likes to eat wht i cook. :DD Hahas. & Now im craving for a fag . Well i have to be forgiven for tht , caz i hadn't had one since ... last night ! Hohos. I hope Galfee will drop by tdy , so tht i wouldn't be so boreed . Caz of the heat , i've not been out over the weekends ! :O Its a bigbig shock yeah. hohos. well i'll have to sign off here to check out how's my brother's spaghetti cooking. Ciao ! :DD

& you just got me realising
tht we will never be the same .

And , Dearie saved th- Day ! :DD

2009-08-01T19:29:00.004+08:00

Woohoos ! After a day's of {DEARIE's}hardwork, finally saved it :DDDD
Happy to th-max :DDDD Congratulations to dearie , and me ! :DD
Today im a good girl . didn't go anywhere else after tuiton .
Should i throw my ass of the chairs and get out for some air ?
LOLs . Lazy . But maybe i would . if GALFEE's my date :D

maybe you wouldn't mind getting out
of my mind for a minute ? :O

Woots, finally ! :D

2009-07-31T19:01:00.000+08:00

fresh blogsite :DDD

yay :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD